I’ve been quiet this week, though it is not a dead silence. It is a very living one. I sit here as a person who feels things very deeply, is moved by empathy as much as anything, and has not made choices to insulate myself from tension or division. In this difficult political moment in the U.S. I know the sisters who aren’t speaking to one another. I know the daughters who are devastated by the political positions of their parents, where trust has been lost. I know the people throwing up, sobbing. I know what it feels like to be disenfranchised.

I also know the calm satisfaction of the winners. I know the feeling that what’s done is done, and also the elation of getting your guy in. I know the people who feel they haven’t been heard finally feeling heard. I know the people who are thrilled by our president-elect’s plan for his first 100 days in office, which is no less than terrifying to many others.

I won’t tell anyone that they should “get over” these divisions. True convictions do affect relationships, and indeed they should. I do not tolerate or embrace respectability politics, in which dissent is considered unappealing or impolite and therefore can be shut out by an attitude that the prevailing power doesn’t have to call intolerance.

I stand for peace. But I do not stand for silence. I stand with my neighbors as people. But also I stand with people of color, immigrants, disabled people, trans people, queer people and all the other “widows and orphans” of our time. If these things are tested, I pray that my heart will be found true, to what is right and not what is comfortable or easy.

For now and for the future I continue to live my life best moment to best moment, best decision to best decision. I am not motivated by fear. But neither am I blind to it. I am not motivated by conflict. But neither am I unprepared for it.

Jesus has always been a dissenter. My guy is in. And the sun keeps rising. Today I tend the fire.

Love from the yurt,
Esther


Today’s Thursday video is a hopeful and restful chat beside the fire, with emphasis on self care and the question of whether you can identify a certain obscure literary reference.

Enjoy. :)