leaves and keys

I have already written at least one long squishy post about my writing journey into having my first book deal. How amazing it all is, and how long it took to find an agent, and how miraculous it feels that things have finally fallen into place…etc, etc, etc.

Isn’t it just like me to not tell you what it’s actually about?

[Ahem.]

Here are some things about my book, roughly written and in no particular order, that I think you might want to know.

  1. It’s a Christian conversion story…AND it’s a story of going for a year without the Internet.
  2. It’s about rest. It tells how sometimes you need rest to find your way to faith, but also sometimes you need faith to find your way to rest.

  3. I don’t know what it’s called. Sorry. Will have to get back to you on that. That’s basically the only part that isn’t written.

  4. It’s memoir. Story more than devotional. Story more than position paper. Basically just story.

  5. One of the things that has made it hard to place, publisher-wise, is that it isn’t linked to any particular agenda. It would be hard for me talk about my coming to faith without addressing feminism and motherhood, but that isn’t what the book is about. And my whole life has shaped by activism regarding our food system and environmental issues, but that isn’t what the book is about either.

  6. It’s mostly about negative space. Open space. {…. …. ….} Who even knows what that is anymore?

  7. The publisher is Zondervan.

  8. It is planned to come out in hardback.

  9. It’s kind of long. As Christian books go.

  10. It isn’t about my homesteading life. It takes place in the city, actually. But it is a prequel to my homesteading life. If you know me (which so many of you do) you can see it foreshadowing all the crazy stuff I’m into now. So that’s kind of funny. (Also, Book 2, which I can’t even have you talk to me about right now because stress! and deadlines!! will definitely be about my homesteading life. Definitely. But don’t talk to me about that right now. Because STRESS! and DEADLINES!!)

  11. The most amazing thing about this story, and the thing I hope I can communicate, is the way God came for me. I wasn’t really aiming for that, and in fact was a very outspoken critic of the Christian faith as well as Christian culture. But God came for me. God came for me and grabbed on and didn’t let go. Which gives me a terrible and wonderful responsibility to share my story. I have to share my story, because it isn’t really mine. 

A friend who has known me through the whole weird and wooly process of this just forwarded me this quote from Frederick Buechner.

“My story is important not because it is mine, God knows, but because if I tell it anything like right, the chances are you will recognize that in many ways it is also yours.”

I don’t even have words for how true this is. It’s the funniest thing in the world, how I tell all these unusual things about my faith…that I converted late, that I converted in a big Eastern city, that I read the Bible backwards, that I am charismatic and simultaneously quite progressive, that I hate hate hate to be told what to do but also want nothing more than to know exactly what I am supposed to do…and the more I tell, the more universal my experiences all seem.

I’d love to tell you all about myself. But that isn’t really what this story is. It’s a story about the threads that run through all of us, of light and dark, sorrow and hope, resistance and redemption. It’s a story about the length of God’s arm.

I can’t wait to share it with every one of you.