About Esther

Seven years ago, I quit my job and went off the Internet. It changed me. I'm still a kitchen-phobe with a long history of bulimia and anxiety, but now I tend a garden and make jam and make noodles from scratch. I still have needs and fears like anybody else, but I also have a practice of eating mystery, which is that I actually, truly, for REAL expect to be sustained by faith. And in the last three years our family has made a BIG move out of our comfort zone...into a more sustainable lifestyle and an off-grid yurt. Leap and the net will appear!

The Most Rebellious Thing

When I was a little girl, we had a book of children's moral lessons told in story. Several of the tales were from the Bible, and I didn't realize until much later that the story of Bobby putting his baseball through his neighbor's window wasn't actually from the chapter right before Daniel in the lion's den.

By |July 19th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|15 Comments

I’m Doing Something New (and a VIDEO)

Last summer Nick and I started making regular content for our YouTube channel. I thought it was super fun. We tried all the different kinds of videos a person could try. People said they wanted more videos, so we tried making more videos. We tried everything.

By |July 14th, 2016|Uncategorized|15 Comments

Small Good Things Matter

This is what makes the world make sense again, when terrible things keep happening. This is what makes it possible for me to feel my feelings in a world where good things and bad things live right next door to one another.

Of Magic and Mercies

I told the kids only one or two little chapters each day, because I don't want to be done soon. When you find a book that is medicinal, that heals broken things, you don't want it to run out. You don't want to waste it.

By |June 29th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|8 Comments

In Defense of Tiny Things

I wanted to write today in defense of tiny things. And going slowly. And being very much in process all the time.

By |June 21st, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|11 Comments

Brotherhood of Brokenness (Orlando shooting)

I didn't have words all night last night, for the realization of 50 people killed and as many again shot by a terrorist in a gay club in Orlando. I still don't have words.

By |June 14th, 2016|Messy Faith|6 Comments

Sweet Summer Days

here we are, right in the middle of this messy life, that seems so right unless you look at it from the wrong angle and then you can't justify it at all.

By |June 7th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|26 Comments

On Power, and Politics, and Where Our Dignity Comes From

I've had it up to here with the news cycle. Part of it is just hilarious, all the ridiculous things famous people are doing, and then the funny things entertainers say about those ridiculous things. But mostly we're laughing through clenched teeth.

By |May 17th, 2016|Messy Faith|15 Comments

Seeds and Water and Cold Days in May

I'm still fighting the good fight, trying to love this ordinary life, even when the world is so full of shiny things and distractions.

By |May 10th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|13 Comments

Big news, beautiful people

We slowed down and ate a lot of fried potatoes, and promptly TED released my TEDx talk on YouTube and Zondervan released my gorgeous book cover and Chris Verkerk found us a swarm. But it's cool, really. This is normal. It's just spring.

Swinging Back Home

This week I’m swinging back home. I’m spreading chips and planting seeds and clearing weeds of all kinds.

By |April 15th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|3 Comments

In Which I Have an Emotional Hangover and a Baby Goat

My birthday is in a couple of weeks. I'm turning 37. And of all the things I'm grateful for, I'm most grateful for this: that I'm so much better at letting myself have things that make me happy.

By |April 8th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|6 Comments