Esther

About Esther

Seven years ago, I quit my job and went off the Internet. It changed me. I'm still a kitchen-phobe with a long history of bulimia and anxiety, but now I tend a garden and make jam and make noodles from scratch. I still have needs and fears like anybody else, but I also have a practice of eating mystery, which is that I actually, truly, for REAL expect to be sustained by faith. And in the last three years our family has made a BIG move out of our comfort zone...into a more sustainable lifestyle and an off-grid yurt. Leap and the net will appear!

Cupcakes in the Dark

The lights went off in the middle of Sadie's birthday party. I hadn't been thinking much about our batteries, or how full they were. ...

By |October 12th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|8 Comments

The Cost of Hope (VIDEO)

Today's Thursday chat is a bit deeper than some, and maybe less conclusive. Bring your patience and your appreciation of potential contradictions. But this is the truth of where I'm sitting right now, in my contemplative fall. I'm doing some thinking and some chewing and also a bit of rejoicing, and mostly thinking about how hope doesn't come for free.

By |October 6th, 2016|The Homestead Wife|0 Comments

A Good Rest

Do you ever wake up one day and realize how tired you’ve been for an entire year? I do this pretty much every year, when I take my October Internet fast. First I think, “wow, there are a lot of hours in the day.” And then I think, “oh my gosh, I need to sleep for all of them.”

By |October 4th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|9 Comments

Why I Didn’t Really Quit Homesteading After My First Year (VIDEO)

Sorry for the long title. This is just another chatty Thursday talk, with barnyard animals, the reason why I came back to homesteading even when I had every reason to stay quit, and some talk about authenticity and why it matters. If you haven't seen it already, you might want to watch this one first: Why I Quit Homesteading After My First Year Now here's the new one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S8GlfPV5NKg

By |September 29th, 2016|The Homestead Wife|2 Comments

Ordinary Days of Fall in the Woods

I put up 200 pounds of tomatoes this weekend. I also turned off my Internet for a couple of days. The tired had gotten all the way down into my bones, and when that happens the only rest is good hard work --- best of all good hard work done leaning slightly on the porch post with a view of the hills turning to autumn.

By |September 27th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|8 Comments

The Secret to Slowing Down Your Life (VIDEO)

This is a special one. Also, you can watch the ducks swimming on the pond.

By |September 22nd, 2016|The Homestead Wife|5 Comments

Love in Emoticons (and Other Thoughts About the Internet)

it is a huge part of my story -- a huge, crucial part of my story of becoming more myself and more whole and more human -- that I went for a year without the Internet. It is also a huge part of my story -- another huge, crucial part -- that I'm now the modern kind of off-grid homesteader, which means that electronics and electronic communication are integral to my daily life. Which is how it's true that I really can't go a day without emoticons.

By |September 20th, 2016|Writing Life|4 Comments

Why I’m Not a Reality TV Star (VIDEO)

Here's a story I've told before, but this time in video, on the best commissioning I ever received as an insult.

By |September 15th, 2016|The Homestead Wife|3 Comments

Mad Plum Woman

yet I will be joyful, not numb. Yet I will be human, not machine. Yet I will love the wild plums, and the cat who curls up at my neck, and put my hope in trees.

By |September 13th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories), Uncategorized|7 Comments

Strong Woman | Still Married (VIDEO)

This video didn't make it out on Thursday, but that's not the only thing that's unusual about it. I have so many times (especially lately) avoided getting into anything like "issues," and so often that's the right choice. But I have been convicted this week, both in person and in my heart, to use my voice for what it's for. Be prepared if you choose to watch this one that it may be hard listening, as true stories sometimes are. More than anything I want to clarify the distinction between upholding certain ideals and crucifying certain people. One of my [...]

By |September 9th, 2016|Writing Life|13 Comments

Flat Out

I don't know if I'm moving fast enough, to meet all the expectations over me right now. I don't know if I can. Honestly, I might be headed into some awkward moments. I can only hope that though I'm stretched thin I'll still be laughing.

By |September 6th, 2016|Little Yurt in the Big Woods (Stories)|7 Comments

Why I Avoid Conversations About Ethical Shampoos (VIDEO)

This week's Thursday chat is is a little hard to pin down, with vague references to snobbish quilters (maybe?), competitive homesteaders (almost certainly), and some unnamed person who really needed to tell me off about shampoo. Seriously, folks, let's fight back against jealousy and competition. There's a better way.

By |September 1st, 2016|The Homestead Wife, Uncategorized|3 Comments